REGURGITATED BULLSHIT

Thunder hidden inside.

2012-02-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

I won’t let these feelings resurface. I am too familiar with the way they cloud my thoughts and the immense pressure that builds up in my chest.

I'm more than ready to move on. I have to stop thinking in these cycles. I need to work through my negative thoughts; pick them apart and dissolve them. I will not let people’s words control how I feel. I will not let people control how I feel.

I have to release this tension

Lower my expectations.

Just forgive.

& Forget the shit out of it.

People can do some ugly things, but the thing that matters is that they're trying to fix it.

Peace, love and lol.

The 'job'

2012-02-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hi.

As far I'm concern about the global warming, the politicians, the religion problem. Some, are more concerning about how I'm neglecting my blog. Ok I admit it wasn't as productive as it used to. Not a cheerful and clean as it should be. Not as... Well, you get the picture.

No, I'm not that 'kind' of busy-working-making-money type of most of my friends are currently doing right now. Although I'm a bit jealous of them because they're busy making money $$$. And yeah, I'm that kind of sitting-at-home-sleeping-babysit-lepak-makan-tido-kroooh type of post spm-ers :p Oh, no no no. It's not that I wanted to do so. In fact, I've been asking my mum for a green light for me to get a job. She'll be like "Mana? Untuk?" and keep on giving her random reason like.. "Lipat kain, mop lantai, jaga Rayyan, masak. Mama bagi upah". It's not that I didn't appreciate her effort for to 'stay safe' at home. I really do. But I'm trying to be an independent ladylike ho-ho here ma. I'd like to gain a few experience yknow. Knowing most of my friends are working their ass of for their job makes me wants a job too.

Some might said "It's a heavy task and no fun game at all working bla.. bla.. bla.." I mean c'mon. Nothing is easy right? So, I like to put myself on a harder task too. Learn to grow up. I'm gonna be on my own in the afterlife. Why can't I be in this life too? Right? So macam aku pun nak jugak merasa weiii. Sumpah bosan gila babi duduk rumah. Tolonglahh~~

I have sooo many things on my list I've been dying to do. That things I want involved the word or a thing we called 'money'. Its hard ok to go out and lepak. I'm not that typical person who love to ask their parents some pocket money. Not cool lah kan? So by far, my plan is to find an easy task which involves money or so. Whatever that is related to it. Hehe :p But for now I think I'll do some video shitty stuff, or or that photography bla bla or even better. Work with my brother-in-law. Fill those few months of doing NOTHING. But anyway, that is all my random rants I could think of to fill up my blog for today. Goodbye.

For school kiddos, you'll understand soon enough when you get to my stage. And for the older ones, pergh. I FEEL YOU BRO. I REALLY DO *criesssss

Salam Maulidur Rasul to everyone :-)

PLKN.

2012-01-26T23:11:00.001+08:00

For me. This is the best experience I'll ever had chance to get myself on. You have no idea all those tears I shed for PLKN before was not worth at all. I remember the first time I checked my name online for PLKN. You have no idea how I felt. It was horrible. I went all teary for two days. I didn't even told anyone expect the closed ones. I kept a huge secret from everyone. Not even one of my family knew about it. Right until spm is over. I finally told them. They were surprised. And my mum, she wasn't quite confident that I told her the truth.

I remember that before I'm off to my boot camp. I don't know why, well maybe because of the people that support me a lot by going through it makes me even eager to go. I was anxious. Believe me I do. So, as I went there. God, you have no idea how the camp looked like. It was far far far in a rural place. Too far to even describe how far deep it is inside the what-the-heck place. The first week was tough. Literally. I was literally alone, by myself. No connections, not even one familiar faces. I was super alone. I cried myself to sleep every night. Thinking that I want to go home so bad but theres two months away knowing I had to stay here. But above all, I made friends. That the utmost best part in PLKN. Friends.

I remember the first time Family Day were held. My mum. Oh my, she made me cry a river for her. She even cried her tears there, for me. She was so upset that I was almost an hour late meeting her. She went burst into tears and mock the teachers for not letting her seeing her only daughter. That tears me up so much :') And she brought a whole lot of crap for me. Literally brought a rice cooker....

I remember at the end of 2nd week I stayed there, I was ill. Terribly ill and still currently am having a fever. I got myself into so much pain. So much needle have been penetrated on my hands. Only god knew how many. Then, there were the people that I loved and so so grateful knowing there took a really good care of me. You have no idea how much I appreciate the things they did for me :') so much sacrifices I almost cried writing this down.

So the doctor decided for me to stop going there as it would make my body worse. I had to leave camp, for good. I'm gonna tell you all right up here because I'm tired explaining it over over and over again. I left PLKN because I was sick, super sick that they had to took my blood so many times. I've been into the emergency for further obeservation, I was put into a 3 bottles for drip because I was too dehydrated. And now here I am, still sick. So the doctor decided for me to stop going and here I am. All the freedom my friends in camp jealous of.

So now, I just got back home from camp. I need to meet all of them before I had to leave. I need to take all of my bags and pillows and bags home. I have to say goodbye. I need to take loadz of picture with them. I had to. I love all of them. Truth to be told, I left with a heavy heart. They were amazeballs. I couldn't ask for more :') I have no regrets going to PLKN. Not even a bit. In fact, I miss it already.

You guys are amazing. Thank you for everything.

P/s: For the future wira and wirawati, you'll have a blast going there. Believe me because I did. And for a record, I've become far more indipendant lady than I used to be. Nuff said.

Peace, love and lol.

Ten things,

2012-01-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

There's ten things I learnt in life so far.

One,
There will always a possibility in life that all of us need to believe in but never give in.

Two,
I didn't soaked myself into those silly songs when I'm sad. I'll reminisce myself in bed and cried to sleep.

Three,
Friends are easy to gain, easy to loose. They are worth something especially when they sacrifices their time and energy to take care of you. They'll be worried sick when you're gone.

Four,
The happy friends that love to boss you around are the most hypocrites. They lied to you and only taking the advantage to the things you had.

Five,
Not being true to yourself will eventually hurt yourself in the end. So, be brave for your own rights.

Six,
The one that waits is the one shall wait. Take it. Cherish every minute you had with him/her.

Seven,
When you see there's a door. Open it up. It might not be an exit door, maybe just another path for you to change. Chances.

Eight,
Never judge the book by its cover. How soft spoken the person can be. Never ever judge.

Nine,
To survive, you have to be brave. Don't just follow up your friends ass to stand up. Then, you'll just be off good being his/her tail.

Ten,
Mum. She knows best and love you the most. She'll be crying a tear of waterfall just because she cared about you.

Ten things I learnt so far being an independent lady.

The disappearance

2012-01-19T16:27:00.000+08:00

I WUZ BUSY.
I WENT FO PLKN.
HEHE.
I'LL POST SOMETHING UP SOON.
PEACE XX

Post Spm.

2011-12-20T15:51:00.000+08:00

I hope this bring memories to all of us.To my friends.To my fellow martians.To my closest friends.To my classmates.Enjoy :-)

My kind of guy.

2011-12-17T16:12:00.002+08:00

“No measure of time with you will be long enough. But we’ll start with forever.” -- Edward Cullen

Before I start off on these things. I know this might sounds funny but what-the-heck. You see, I have a lot of issue with guys back then. I'm not that good with commitment. I have so much excuses to give when it comes to it. I made a lot of mistakes and I did broke a few hearts. It wasn't on purpose but I have my reasons. People don't really post this kind of stuff but I'd like to. Not trying to be too jovial about this but hey, this thing might made my day and I hope it'll make one of yours too. Right now, this is the options that I chose. I chose to give and to tell.

This kind of guy that I met 6 months back weren't as the same as it will but he had a place in my mind a quite sometime now. I know I had a few wrong turns but then again, I know that I'm in the right path and I assure you that I won't turn around anytime soon because this time, I'm planning to stay. I don't expect this one to be better than before but I hope to be as fun and great as it would since there's a thing or two didn't really hit the spot. The distance.

I'm no love guru but I can't say this situations for me are easy. I've been there once before and it didn't worked out and the distance is not the reason why. Maybe, there's something that weren't really tied it well enough. I've always stick onto one thing that I know fo sho that keeps me going. Everything deserves a second chance and well, believe in the things you do insyaAllah it will come out well :) But nothing beats out the word sacrifices. Right?

We had so much plans after Spm ends but somehow, parents, time, and distance weren't. Oh well, at least we have our hopes still on. And so we manage to slip on a few plans to be get going which I had a chance to had a real nice date with him last Thursday, 14th December. I left Seremban and went to Kuala Lumpur. Stayed there at my sister's place for a night.

I supposed to be going down alone via public transport but I thank one of my good friend who willing to accompany me out till I reached my destination. I met him and both of us catch the next train to reach our exact destination.We hung around and eat lunch in a bit at a few places which I've been craving for ages and then we hit the cinema for New Year's Eve.

The movie was really good. Got a lot of familiar faces and I immediately spot Zac Efron in it ehe :p but anyway, after the movie ends and the lights turned on. We had a bit chat before we had to leave. But then again, he was there in front of me, smiling and held up my hand and said those littlest things that somewhat matters. And now, the rest is history.

I bet you remember the post that I made few months back. I remember writing it all down as I thought it would just another silly post I made. Now, I guess it's clear enough that that is by far true enough for this to share it up. I'm so glad you guys can relate to me as much as I think I'm the only person would felt that way. And so, I thank you.

Dear aliens, zombies and vampies. I'd like you to meet my significant other.

Loves.

Little by little.

2011-12-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

"The little bit harder you try, the little bit bigger it'll gets."

I've been scribbling down my thoughts here since yesterday. I have no clue what I just wrote down but somehow I tend to delete it all because everything sounds uber nonsense. I've been dying to tell what's going on with me on these past few days but I just can't find the perfect words to say - just by telling you how a few moments means something to me. But I'll try to start on a few that I missed out to tell on the previous ones.

Spm. It was hard. I have to bet you on that. Some was fine. I kept leaving the hall early as the paper would end. When I came back home and told Aiman about it. He jumped out and complained how I should to keep my ass in the hall till the papers ends. Ok he can't blame me all at once you know. The prefects won't allow me to lay my head for seconds. I was tired and needed to regain my energy by taking a short nap. Hehe. Now everything has ended. Everyone asked the same question all over again "How was it". I smiled and said ok, k not literally an ok actually. I was trying to comfort myself instead of saying "ferk man, the papers was dunking hard. I have less confident getting a straight As" Yeah. Not helping at all.

Less than two weeks, the new years is crawling. Ah this time, I loathe new year. This is by far the most hatred thing I had to face right now. I'm dying to have a month or two of December. I like December. December sounds nice right? I never have this kind of feeling towards December but now, I, somehow like it. It calms me down. There's a year end sale, Christmas sale, friends gathering and hectic plans going ups and downs to KL. I won't be working anytime soon like others are and I won't be starting off taking my driving license anytime soon either. I have a few plans on my mind that I had to settle it all in this so little space of mine with my loved ones.

Haa ok. I'm feeling so lost right now. I think my tummy is growling. I can assure you it's making a live concert right here. So toddle doo. Write to you soon xx :)

Loves.

How

2011-12-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

How to say this.
How can I scribble this in here?
How should I write this down?
How people gonna say?
How will they react when I do so?

How? How/ How?

I have no idea but you'll see :)

Baby boy.

2011-12-12T13:42:00.001+08:00

I'd like to welcome to you my sister's first child, Muhammad Rayyan Ziqri bin Mohd Shukri. He's our first nephew and my parents' first grandchild. An additional members to our family. hihi.

So hi uolls. Sorry I've been hiatus for days now. I was busy with my family errands and did't get a chance to sit quietly in front of the laptop and just type away what's been going on around here. I know I totally broke my promise for an instant update after spm ends ;p hehe. So I think you might had heard from my twitter. My sister just delivered my very first nephew! I'm super stoked. He's super gorgeous. Didn't think I'm gonna be an aunty immediately after I end my school days -.-

But I have to admit that leaving school for good is such an amazing feeling. Rasa macam beruk baru lepas keluar sangkar tau tak? Anxious to plan going here and there. Tak sedar diri takde duit ni :p But anyway, this is what I literally do immediately after I finished economy paper until now.

Hung with cuak.
Skype
Gayut
visit my sister at the hospital, everyday.
Screamed my lungs out
went to Port Dickson on the next day (photos in my facebook album)
immediately ran to the hospital.
hospital
hospital
and more hospital
my nephew were born
didn't get enough sleep for 4 days.
slept late
Didn't get a chance to stay the whole day at my house.
tweeting
and then, get my berry back.

Well em, that's it I guess. Gonna update a few important things up soon. Please bear with me. I'm uber busy :(

loves.

Typical.

2011-11-30T16:39:00.001+08:00

I loathe copycats.

Loves.

One shoe to another.

2011-11-20T02:10:00.001+08:00

Meow.

Hello. I'd like to say something here. I hope you guys don't mind because I'd like to talk about a few thing about the society. So, please don't be too skeptical about this. Read, then you'll understand. If you do understand. Oh god bless :)

Have you ever felt doubted about a few things that you've always wanted do? If you do, oh well well. We're on the same page here. You're being so keen to express the emotions and excitement towards the things that you love but still, you just don't have the enough guts to do so. I always had those feelings, always will. Especially when blogging and making a video. But that doesn't mean I'm gonna stop trying. I've decided, no matter how hard the third party might said about me but hey, at least it's the furthest I challenged myself to do. Something I used to doubted myself about.

Have you ever feel to wanting to be appreciated? I do. I love to be appreciated, especially to the things I pour my love, my heart and soul into. Like shopping. Who doesn't love the smell of the authentic leather or the sense of wearing something that is worth your every penny. The quality. Always.

Have you ever felt hate being judged? I guess all of us do. Everyone hate being judged. It's the sickens feeling in the world. And yes, I to admit by stating the word everything, which includes me lah kan. Yeah I do sometimes judge people. But that doesn't mean I have to shove it everything inside those people I'm judging. I've always put a mind set "oh well, maybe he/she have some problem with these and that. I'll never know until I'm in his/her shoe" Try to put myself into a new perspective.

At the bottom of this. I try to write this as complicated as possible because I don't want to be in a palpable position that makes you feel uncomfortable. You see, I love love love love the society who really appreciate things that I do and never try to be so judgmental towards the things that I try to do. The things that I used to be so skeptical about. These people made me eager to do more. A simple thank you never fails to make me smile. Literally. But that doesn't mean I'm craving for attention. I'm just another person who lacks of it. Have you ever knew that? No? I guess you just did.

How do you felt when you toiled enough, your bucket of sweats full of effort was put down by one person itself. Or, by a person who thinks they owns everything about you? They think you're the Google of their life. Ok that's sounds pretty neat but, how about you try to your own Google instead. Wouldn't it be better? Authentic. Unique and different than the other.

I've always try my best to jostled by a dream of a crowd where I, myself trying to put up my dream too. I am too, trying to write my own history. How about you write your own too? Be true to who you are. Be bold. These ugly society will appreciate the littlest things we do if we do it with sincerity. How matter how ugly it is, just do it or die trying.

Loves.

I know

2011-11-18T18:16:00.001+08:00

One day, I will regret hating school. How I remember I wish to fasten the days up and just leave. How I wanted to grow up so fast and be independent and live free. Living a life of abundance and responsibility. Work and earn my own money to fulfill my whims and fancies. Splurge on the things I never had, wanted to, dying to get.

One day, I will regret falling in love with the wrong ones. The one that hit you hard with those false hopes and broken promises. The days where you went overboard with the bills. Late nights calls. Stayed up late and got nagged in class because of it and yes, the sacrifices you did to make it work but ended up failing. Failed to stay. Didn't last long. I was left alone - with memories. Well, expect the pictures if I still keep them.

One day, I will regret, regret eating a lot of food. Where it'll ended up in my ass and some other cheeky parts. I'll tweet it up on how fat I am, how disgusted I felt looking so round, how I wanted to be so thin, how oh-so jealous I am with the pretty people and still can't stop myself eating. How I dream and knew I will never be in size 2 and always always always always ended up a with bucket of ice cream in the middle of the night in front of the TV watching America's Next Top model. Wishing - good god that bitch so skinny, I want~

One day, I will regret being so ego towards everything - especially you.

One day, I will regret posting up this because I'm still on my exam week and I supposed to be in my room studying. How I can't restrain myself from the internet. That one particular days I will be mad at myself because I didn't work hard enough to score that paper. I'm gonna be so sad, I blame myself too much and ended up neglecting the people around me.

But I know someday, when I had enough. I come to my sense that by regretting, I learn. I learn how to stay resilient and appreciate a thing or two that makes me feel so grateful that I did them. I also learn that I have to accept the fact and just grow up. I know one day, things that I regret - is one that I'll miss the most. Because things that it seems to be aren't always what they seem and the things that you least expected, sometimes tend to be a lot better than what you expected it would be. And so, I learn to be thankful.

Peace, love and lol.

Mind f'ked.

2011-11-09T15:14:00.001+08:00

My mind are so f'cked up that I can't even.... What the... Oh god.

Oh hi. Miss me? Sorry for my random entrance. I was so clueless, not even a single word can describe my idk-what-the-heck-i-just-felt moment. Hihi. It's been a few weeks I went missing. I cheated on you with twitter. Yes, I'm a bad girlpweng. Since I can't tweet like I used to (for a certain reasons) I came back for you. I miss tweeting like hell I don't know what else to do. And so here I am, typing away~ But no need to be so jelly. I'll be back on hiatus for a month or so because? ahem* SPM around the block er. Seeeeeeee, I have a lot of reason for not to surf the net.

InsyaAllah by the time I pen down my pencils for my last paper on 6th December. I'll promise a tweets, a video, a photos and a whole lot of stories to tell. By that, you're gonna start to be very jelly of me. So please wish me some luck, a lot of it. Pray for my best Thank you for those who have been texting and tweeting me wishes, thank you so much. I cannot be grateful enough to had such a wonderful person like ugais. Thank you thank you.

And now, I shall leave and take a step into my battlefield. Salam.

GOODLUCK SPM FREAKS!

Peace, love and lol.

Seseri.

2011-10-26T18:46:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Diyana Mahashim!

Much much love :)

peace love and lol.

Life.

2011-10-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

anyone can do it once.

do it twice and they'll respect you.

do it every single time and you are a legend.

Peace love and lol.

Amir Hamzah's

2011-10-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

I went to Amir's brothers and sister wedding yesterday. So I met a lot of unfamiliar faces from the s2 kiddos. But anyway, I hung around with my zombies, a few of the georgian and the rest of the clans. Oh and, Amir Hamzah looks so dashing in his Baju Melayu. Major turn on! Hahahah. And thanks for the ride Hanif! :D
More gif photos on my tumblr.

Peace love and lol.

My favorite disease. I, myself can't even cure it.

2011-10-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

I've set my heart for this guy for far too long.

Too long even time can't define how long it has been.

He's pretty weird, but weird enough for me to love ♥

Pungent.

2011-10-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

I have to admit I'm still grasping for air and trying my best to settle down with this crap-loads. I have tons of things I need to think about and gazillion I shouldn't be thinking of. Paranoid. Whatever that is, I am doing fine and still capable living my life as it is. How I deeply wished everything turned out the way I used to plan. Too bad I'm no wizardly psycho voodoo pipo to change the crap about bullshit that's have been stated. Trust me. I just..can't.

You : I kinda pissed and still does even though things have been months now cos feelings doesn't come and goes like people do you know. You see feeling takes time and now, that time I've been dying to have is not always on my side. How I wished you would think back what you've done and just think deep about it. Can't you see it's been effecting my entire life, my fucking mind and its gonna blow into a million pieces any second now. Have you ever? No? Well, I guess you just never noticed. You never will. Ah, I just hope you'll be the best in your life and I hope you're doing as fine as I do. And I really hope that you would think it back, just a little bit about it and confront me. I mean, revenge is sweet but seriously? Will it worth it?

Both : You guys have changed a lot since....yeah. I hate the distance. The argument and the backstabbing. It hurts when you're being so well-competitive when you knew from that exact moment by doing so won't give a fucking benefits, at all. That little satisfaction you're asked for does not worth the fight. Not at all. Just fucking stop okay? I hate it. I always thought you guys were born to hold each other hands. I guess a thought are sometimes just too good to be true. Screw you hopes and dream. Fuck it all.

Them : I really really appreciate all the things you've said and you really do stood up for me back there when they're kept on throwing harsh criticism at me. It's such a wonderful feeling to know that someone like you actually exist in this judgmental world. I thank you hundredth of times and I know buy just saying than you doesn't compare a thing from what you've done for me but this is the furthest I could possibly give to you, just to appreciate all those sweet and thoughtful things you've did. I am really sorry I can't reply all the love you're giving me because I'm just another girl waiting for 'my kind of guy'. Literally, I'm just the same as you do.

Sometimes, all of us contradict mostly everything that usually thrown negatively to us. We never absorb as a moral lessons. Instead, we walk on parallel lines just to getting away from it. How are we gonna change if we don't change ourselves? We always criticize people for what they've become but we never take a moment to look ourselves in the mirror that we're just as equally as them. Nuff said.

Peace, love and lol.

Live and Acoustic with the zombies Pt III

2011-10-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

and so, here it is! *doin' the happy dance* Okay now, lemme break it down to ya. We were shooting a few shots outside to get that different scene than the previous ones and then all off a sudden, the weather turned grey. You can slightly hear the thunder at the back and the sound of the rain dripping. Wicked right? so much for the natural effects. Hehe :B
I love this cover a lot and I hope you guys like it too. This is gonna be my last video with the zombies for the next two months. Dropping off everything to get my mindset ready for SPM. Check them out and share with others. It's been great doing this video with them.So spread some love love love love love. Ttyl! :]

Peace love and lol.

It's possible.

2011-10-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

I've been dying to write a few things here but somehow ze brain didn't function as well as my plans. I guess I'm gonna be hiatus for quite a long time. Spm is a few weeks left and I'm dead nervous. I'll try my best to keep you guys posted. But anyway, I had a pretty good week even though my mood swings sometimes are just a pain in the ass but that's okay. At least I found out last Friday turned out to be the nicest one so far :-) hehe.
Gonna upload a new video soon~ Can't wait! :-)

Peace, love and lol.

getting all GIF-ish

2011-09-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

Sup fresh?

Today I didn't get a chance to go out to watch movie, so instead my parents gave a green light for hisan's crib. Mkayaaayy. So anyway, I did some really funny gif picture of a good friend of mine. You guys might remember him from my previous post and videos I made with him. This one is hilarious. He looks like a pedophile. You guys should check him out. He makes a really funny vlog of himself. Oh yeah, quick update. I'm gonna make a last video update before SPM starts. So stay tuned :-)

Stalk Ahmad Hisan's Youtube, Twitter and Blog.
Go ahead and say hi! :D

peace love and lol.

The kind of guy.

2011-09-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

He's the kind of guy who you willing to stay up late at night just to have that long conversation. You know that its the only time you guys will have for each other. The time where you thought things would be perfect if it's actually exist right in front of you. But you just knew that won't be happening anytime soon. That time you knew your parents will go berserk on you when the bills come. The time you knew that you have to fight with your eyes to stay awake in the morning classes afterwards. But you just don't care.

He's the kind of guy you will always wants to be the only one that he will set his eyes on. Only you. You'll put your best effort to make him feel special on his very special occasions. The one that you hoped you'll be the first in line to wish him a happy birthday and the last person he'll say goodnight to. The one that you'll panic for two days earlier on planning a day out with him. The one you've been wanting to see after not seeing each other for months.

He's the kind of guy you wished he'll be just like your best friends. The one that think the things that you like is the coolest thing ever and he can totally relate to, keep every little secret of yours, that believes you unconditionally and cares for you more than anything. Chemistry. He considered as things that you look stupid, silly or even ridiculous sounds so adorable in his way. The feeling that you hoped someone accept you, no matter how pathetic you looked like.

He's the kind of guy who makes you love your name just because he says it. The one that wrote your name down when he misses you. Everything that he does he had to involved part of you in it. He’s the kind of guy that never let you off his mind. Not even for a second. He's one that keep on listening to every crap you're blabbing when everyone else ignores the hell out of you. The one that will give you all of his ears.

He’s the kind of guy that makes his effort to get close to you. He’ll find a way to keep the distance between both you not too far apart. He wants to be in a place where he knows he can sees you everyday. Just you. The guy who rush everything for you just because he afraid that he’ll loose the time to spent to talk to you. He knows he haven’t been calling you for awhile and so he almost choked at his own breath running back and forth to find a way to get through to you. The effort that he makes just to hear your voice. Your weird ugly voice.

He’s the kind of guy I hate falling for. I don't know what convinced me to take the chance to be with you. But every day I am so thankful that I did. This might sounds so cliche but fuck it. I love you.

Open House Merdeka Raya King George V

2011-09-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

Having everything feels so perfect and amazing just makes your heart a lot heavier to leave school. So far this is the best Merdeka slash Hari Raya Celebration I'll ever have in King George V. Thanks for the food, the culture, the people, friends, teachers, and my baby aliens, zombies and vampires. I can't wait to kick ass in SPM but I need more time wasting my days as a Georgian. 5 years wasn't enough. Trust me. You'll regret for not being one. Tsk. More photos in my Facebook Album.

Peace love and lol.

September.

2011-09-12T22:55:00.001+08:00

You’ll know her very well once you’ve heard her scream cause she’s fierce. She’s loyal and a good listener. She never afraid to opens up her mind and state what she had to say. She’s the lady with a lot of attitude. She got some nice ass. She’s somewhat really shy but never fail to impress you. She’s been heart broken and broke some heart. She’s a lover and a great companion in life. She’s the lady of the cougar. The captain of the cheer squad. She’s an annoying little sister of her three sisters. She’s the daughter of Wahiddin and a sister by heart of mine. She’s the closest thing of mine. She’s the shoulder I look for to cry on. She’s my girlfriend. My best friend. And September, this is for you :)

I knew her for almost 5 years but been really close friend for almost two years now. I remember the day we’re destined to be table mates. I didn’t know that we’re gonna be best bud but yeah, we did. I remember going to your house after the school ends. Eats up your mum’s yummy cooking (ayam masak merah is the best) and just hang out doing nothing. I remember talking on the phone with you and blabbed just about anything. I remember the time you were hurt by the things that he does to you and cried it over and over again. I, sometimes have no clue how to comfort you. But I guess laughter the best medicine :) I remember your days of mood swings where things around you just wasn't right and I thought I was the one who took the blame. I felt awful, believe me I do. I remember the time you passed out on me and I thought you were joking around but you were totally fucked up fainted on me. I panicked and almost cried. BUT! I managed to take control of myself ;p I remember that time crying on your bed how ‘she’ started to mock me up and you just listens to my story and cracked me up with some silly jokes. Made my day.

I remember that time you hold up your pains for me just to accompany me to meet him and that one time we skipped classes together just for me to meet up with him, again. I owe you one. I remember that time when we take dozens of pictures during class photo sessions and you fell off the chair. The best fell off, ever. I remember the time we used to skyped all night long and sleep through it. I remember that time when I had to stay awake to comfort you. I know I need to be there for you. I remember the time when your sister got engaged and I tag along to had your hair done. I remember laughing my ass of during PE swimming period. I remember that time when I danced my way for the Teacher’s Day flash mob and you helped me out with the routine. I remember the time when I stayed up late at your home just to make the new dance routine for the cheer squad. I remember going out on the school trip and had a blast out there.

I remember the time you lost your cat and cried it over at school to us. I remember getting all excited when the cheer comp qualification list were out. I remember piggy back you even though you hated it. I remember the time when we promise to each other not to cut our hair until we broke up with our loved ones. And look at our hair now :) I remember that time we're surprised February on her birthday. Today, it's your turn. I remember the time that we iftar together with nyna and hakim. We took a lot of photos. I remember we used to text each other all day but now, free texting all day long :) I remember our plans getting into the same University because we’re just plain cool. And I don’t remember for not being friends with you.

And today, I planned a little surprise for yo even though it wasn't perfect. I'm sorry there's a few missing person here and there but I did tried my best. You’re such an amazing person. Though sometimes we had our misunderstood but I understand it well enough why. I am sorry for the things that I’ve do might hurt you. I know you know me better than that. Regardless all the bad things we've been facing thought for this few years. On this special birthday of yours. Here’s a simple post to you. I hope we're gonna be as close as we are right now, InsyaAllah. But remember, if we do drift apart, your name will always have a place in heart, missing you. I love you September.

Happy birthday Syamil Wahiddin.

Plain verse

2011-09-11T03:09:00.001+08:00

This. Is. Just. Awesome.

That's how I feel right now. This exact moment. I was gloomy for the past few days and today, this moment cures everything. You know that moment when you think you couldn't be any happier then you prove yourself wrong? Yeah that happened today. And I just died. Oh my god. I can't breathe. Holy shit.

Peace, love and lol.

Temporarily.

2011-09-09T00:23:00.001+08:00

Hey.

I finished my economics paper today! Yes, I am officially a free layday :B I'm gonna use my 4 days of freedom wisely and plans things for the future! Anyway, the paper was fine. I sleep soundly on paper one and paper two was full of balls, like hard ballsm. I'd die for some answers. Seriously. At school, I went total lunatic laughing with the girls. Idky but I guess after two days not seeing them, I went crazy. I can't imagine how it'd be like when I went away for months next time :')

Yesterday I made my very first bank account (yesh I'm so lame I know -.-). It took me a few change of places and hours of waits. Oh god, I'm dying for my shopping therapy. It's been months I haven't bought anything that satisfy my lust. I think I'm gonna splurge some on new red shoes, new purse and a very fine leather bag that I've been craving for months. My oh my.

Well em okay I know September's birthday is a few days ahead but I have no idea what to buy for her. I totally forgot to list it all down a week earlier. I guess I'm way too busy with Eid and Trials. Sorry love! and double sorry for ignoring your excitement yesterday. It was on purpose *evil laugh*

Anyhoooooooo, I trimmed my hair and I can't wait to tell somebody about it mwehehehe. But jsyk, I asked the lady to trim it but somehow it looked like she's cutting half of my hair away... But wtv, it'll grown out through time. Sooooo I'm out of ideas. so bye! :D

Peace love and lol.

Naive

2011-09-06T23:46:00.001+08:00

It's funny how you tried to be as good as you were before but people around kept judging you though other way around. I know it sucks to be in this kind of situation and I am still absorbing with the new surroundings too. It's kinda sad to say when things you hoped would be gonna turned out the other way around. Yes, the other way around.

No. I'm not trying to pointed out something here but I have the right to speak my minds out especially here, knowing talking to you right now won't do any good. I know a lot more than you think, but you don't even bother to ask or take an advantage towards what I have. Instead, you started to mock me up when I'm trying to be nice. This pisses me off, quite a lot. So I'm done satisfying people especially you. Fake asses always shove their crap to people and pretend as if they got their wise words stick on their forehead. You're as just as naive as the babies. Mark that.

Peace love and lol.

Monday blues.

2011-09-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

Yellow.
I officially deleted my old old post. Since I knew Aiman kept clicking the older post, so I guess I have to delete all of the nonsense stuff first. Muahaha. I hate the past jsyk. Anyway, today I sat for my account papers which sucks balls, hard. My eyes went all fucked up and I had to stay awake for 2 hours straight just to finish answering those what-the-heck questions I needed to filled in. One papers left Fatin! I can do this.

Yesterday my dad started his 'typical' rule on that 'typical' time for me be grounded from my phone and my laptop. As if that would make any difference. Well yeah, I can't live without my blackberry but what-the-heck. That's just bullshit. All I need is space. Calm, peaceful and quiet space.

Guess what? September and February made an after spm to-do list specially for me. It was the most sweetest thing ever with the farewell party etc :') Made my day! tsk tsk hehe

peace love and lol

Happy Eid.

2011-09-04T04:55:00.000+08:00

My Eid was random and I had my first eid at the mall, shopping. It was a lie I finished my trials and a total burden for me to live the whole week thinking there two papers left to sit. I can't think properly. I need to enjoy the moment right now, but I just can't. Ergh. Screw you trials. Few months left and off I go. Dumping school. So go figure.

Peace love and lol

Dear future significant other,

2011-09-03T04:37:00.000+08:00

I am so tired of never being good enough for people. It’s become something I have grown accustomed to; being second best to everyone and everything. For once, I just want someone to set their eyes on me and want me and no one else. Can you please do that? Just want me more than you’ve ever wanted anyone else.

Peace love and lol

Empty Headed

2011-08-26T11:48:00.004+08:00

I have no idea on what to blog about. So in that case, I entertain you with some random photos during the class photo sessions before PMR and SPM trials. I'll to post something more productive after this weekend. I think. oh p/s: My Ramadhan was so fine and packed with studies for trials. It has ended few days back and currently, I'm fattening myself!! Hehe. I can't wait for Eid Mubarak :)

Anyway, enjoy!

Peace love and lol.

A little bit less than a sixteen. More than a seventeen

2011-08-23T19:42:00.001+08:00

I'll support you through everything. Promise ♥

Peace love and lol

Hiatus.

2011-08-06T16:09:00.001+08:00

Hello.
I had a pretty slow week but still I manage to settle up my works. Stayed at school till 5 with Azzally for an Add-math and Math one-on-one tutor. So I owe him A+ for that. Anyway, I just finished taking the class photo for the 3rd, 5th and 6th formers cos I know they'll be busy with their upcoming exams and trials. I know we're a bit late scheduling this shit but for god sake it's not my fault okay. Stop pointing fingers. Ergh.

So, I got ze famous 'yellow form' yesterday. What so funny about this one that the 'teacher' who gave me the form was so menggelabah, I lol-ed myself when filling up that form. Bitch. So anywaaaayyyy, I'll be busy munching those books, in that case I won't be updating mi blog for a quite some time. So don't you dare not to miss me! I'll be back! Oh and good luck for trial to all my baby aliens! Me lap you cho much :B

SPM MODE. CEH CEH CEH CEH :B

Peace love and lol.

So anyway..

2011-08-01T06:37:00.001+08:00

I've changed my header again. Uuuuu so fierce I tell you. Rawrrr.

I was bored ok *sigh. Anyway, Happy fasting to all muslims. Salam (:

Peace love and lol.

It was close enough.

2011-07-24T01:24:00.001+08:00

Hello fellow Frankenstein! How are you? Hi hi hi!
I had a pretty plain week. I went bloated with my teacher because she promised me to schedule the school photo sessions this week but it turned out we have to move it to another week. Oh yes yes, I was pissed. Furious enough even my teacher said sorry to me eheh. Anyway, last sunday I watched Harry Potter with my cousin. Well em, I was supposed to watch this 'one' particular person but sadly, that 'one' particular person cant make it. I iz sad. Very sad I tell you. But anyway, the usual moment when the movie starts to go all sad and teary and dying and stuff. I started to cried excessively. Even the intro I went all weepy haha. Silly me -,- Oh oh! My school just organized their The Awards Day and I finally had my chance to be part of it. I iz happy, yesh veryyy happeh. It wasn't close from great but still, it was close enough. So boboi!

Peace love and lol.

The agony.

2011-07-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

It seems as though a large majority of it is getting flaked on. Especially right now, since it’s happened to me a few days before. It’s not really good on your self esteem… If it’s ever happened to you. I’m not going to lie, I cried today. I do love being alone, don’t get me wrong, sometimes the best way to let it all out is just have it all to yourself. I wish we could just go back to simpler times when I knew what I wanted and still had hope of getting it, when I just took things in life that made me happy and left everything else in the back of my mind without giving it a second thought. I guess we all have to grow up and face things eventually. I just never thought looking back on the person that I used to be - that I could ever be the person I am now.

The only thing that I could possibly do now is to shuffle every single songs on my iPod and covered myself in their words, sang their songs at the top of my lungs. I let it completely fill me from head to toe and it was always enough. I know I'm just...not strong enough. I don't know what to do. I never realize how difficult this situation really is until I'm curled up alone in bed at night.

Peace love and lol.

It's amazing how sports can make people unite

2011-07-09T12:44:00.000+08:00

Quoted by Edwina Hisham.

I don't know how to describe my 3 weeks of horror and happiness. But I'll try my best. So here goes nothing.

We had our like 1 Sports 1 Students bla bla and some pretty awesome activities afterwards. I turned into nigga! zomg zomg zomg.
The first week of house practice was boring. Nothing excite me but I had fun ranting with all my zombies. Thanks for taking your time hanging with me :*
Did I tell you I lost my external? I had my downpour, big time. I lost every single picture I had. Everybody was really nice with those sweet sweet wishes for me and I got my late night call. Thank you memel :)
I didn't skip the 2nd week practice at all. On Monday, I hung around the management area and on Tuesday was when I got an epic hit landing on my face in High Jump event.
Wednesday, skipped class the whole day bcos we're trying to decide on what to do for house decoration. And we did Ninja-sort-of theme. Most of us went back to school around 8pm till midnight.
Thursday. Its the day. I had my own 'personal' fun. We didn't win but everything was pretty close to perfect. I'm gonna miss this. Abdul Malek won tug of war! :D
Friday. Finish some school errands with the teachers. I wore my pruple sneakers today bcos my black slip on shoe went all wet bcos of yesterday heavy rain :S

So basically, I'm in a point of realization that how sports actually can make us unite. No matter how silly we argue on winning, no matter how hard we tried to impress everyone, no matter how silly we looked, the main purpose we fought were for the sake of fun and I mean, all the last formers were all teary bcos this is our last chance to do everything. And we gave everything we possibly could. This is really sad.

To be frank, I envy a few boarding schools. Especially Mckk. The first time I went to Afiz Basketball tournament, his school impressed me, big time. Their school spirits is amazing even Kgv weren't that epic. On that day, for almost...idk the whole school came down for the team. The cheer team. Friends. It's amazing. You need to see it for yourself. They have my respect. There's a few boarding school have this epic feelings but this one is clear enough for me. Wouldn't it be nice if politic were like this? I'm just saying. So anyway, I'm hoping Georgian would be like this. No need the groupies stuff. Not cool.

Supposed to update last night but I got an interrupt calls hihi. Photos available at my Facebook Album.

Peace love and lol.

I Want To Be Known For My Hits, Not Just My Misses.

2011-07-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

"You can only blame your problems on the world for so long

Before it all becomes the same old song"— Fall Out Boy

Do you remember that silly little songs we used to listen and said 'this is the best rock band ever'?

Well, I do.

Do you remember that moments where you got into an argument with your friend about that one silly song?

Well, I do.

Do you remember growing up with your favourite band and fell asleep listening to them?

Well, I do.

Do you remember that cute funny crush you had on one of the band's member?

Well, I do.

Do you remember the promises they've made that they're gonna be the best band they could ever be?

Well, I do.

Do you ever think for once in your mind that they'll move out and left the group?

Well, I don't.

I remember the first time i heard 'Sugar, were going down' on mtv in standard 5. Such a weird music video, but good god when I lay my eyes on Pete, i fell for him. Love struck. That stupid song stuck in my head and Pete is my all-time celebrity crush. Ever. He is the most gorgeous guy i've ever met, a guy that i'll ever lay my eyes and nobody can replace him. Even when I heard somebody talk smack about them, I swear to god I can throw a punch in their fucking face. That is how obsessed I am towards them.

I remember I bought all of their albums, posters and save any pictures of them I could possibly find on my hard drive. I also remember printing all the crap out of them and stick it on my walls, I even tried my best memorize every one of their silly little songs. I remember that time I checked my iTunes most played songs were from their albums. That weird old songs that I just can't get enough off. Their sound may sounds silly, but I understand it well enough. They trying to tell about their journey of life, their struggle, their sadness.

They're might not be the best rock band ever, they never won any Oscar but they sure won my heart. I was devastated after the announcement of the band's break and they already started a a new musical group. Separated is the right word. I can't seems to accept the fact that for almost two years they've left me and took their silly songs with them. No more 'dance dance we're falling apart to half time'

So the sourness were overflown in me this past few days. I got a small hunch to Google up everything about them. Opened their official site and started to cried it over because I know there is no more Fall Out Boy in my life, ever again. I used to growing up with them, listens to their songs everyday and right now knowing that Pete had a divorced with Ashlee Simpsons and he went all too thin, Patrick made his own label and so does Andy and Joe. This is sad. The boys I used to looked up for being crazily together actually fell apart and moved on to whole another life. I don't really recognise them any more. How I missed those silly things they used to do and posted it on YouTube.

I may sounds weird saying all of this but Fall Out Boy is the best part of my life that I'll never regret falling for, it's like having a fantasy boyfriend. How awful their songs might be to you guys, they always had a place in my heart no matter how silly, how childish, how rude, and how far they drift apart. So boys, 'Thnks fr the mmrs' I love you guys and I'll support you in whatever you guys do <3

"Turn over a new leaf, fuck it turn over the whole tree."— Pete Wentz

Peace love and lol.

I'd like a cheap date.

2011-06-29T02:33:00.000+08:00

You know? One of those nights where we could just lay a blanket on the grass, and lay underneath the stars? Share a conversation, build a bond, share stories, and deep secrets. Maybe a walk and a picnic at the park. Something old fashioned beats anything, rather than just watching a movie and eating dinner. I'd like to do something nobody really does anymore. Let's have a cheap date :)

Peace love and lol.

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious week.

2011-06-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

I had an amazing week. I love this week a lot. I'm happy, in peace and blessed. Though i have to admit this is the tiring week so far but still everything seems to fall down perfectly. Everyone was nice, i was happy, everything went well, you are amazing, school looking great and i'm happy. On monday, the zombies and I planned a new acoustic cover shoot. You can watch it on my previous post. We had our disagreees but i lol-ed out the entire day. The night were a bit bitter bcos i got pinched by a psycho new english tuition teacher and everything next to that were fine.

On Tuesday and Wednesday weren't far different. A really good friend of mine bought a gorgeous leopard earphone for me, I was overjoyed bcos I actually wanted to buy one but let's just say I don't have the '$$'. So thank you my friend! :') Anyway, all the georgian had to stayback for the sports day practice for two consecutive weeks. Everyone were pissed but hey, Mr Moustache tricks on threaten to whom skip this practice will get the 'parang' treatment actually works. Almost everybody went off to the field. And I registered myself for the High Jump event. I'm a bit nervous bcos em, bontot saya sudah berat ohohohohohoh.......

Thursday, I got my final mid test paper and most of my papers have a lil bit improvement, not enough for my mom but still I'm pretty satisfied on what I've achieved. On friday I had a swim on PE period with 4 of my freaks and the rest of the day is history. On saturday the cheer squad had their very first performance and it was good. I wont say it's their best so far, but it was better than the usual practice. Good job guys! Round of applause for the aliens! Oh yeah, I was suspossed to hang out with memel today but too bad memel is injured. I was a bit sad but memel promised we'll skype the rest of the day and we did! I was head over heels. Thank you memel! :)

So anyway, SPM trial is couples of weeks left and i haven't revise a mingle thing. I know I'm a lazy kid but there's too much things to do and i kept on procrastinating the whole time. Sorry sorry. I'll make things up. After this week ends with sports day yadayada, i'll heads up to the books. Promise xx.

P/S : My phone is a wreck! Getting a new one soon. Thanks syafie for lending yours for me to use for awhile :)

Peace love and lol.

Live and Acoustic with the zombies Pt II

2011-06-26T01:09:00.000+08:00

Share and enjoy.

I still care about you.

2011-06-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

Even if we haven’t talked in a while. I still care about you. You were someone special to me, of course I wouldn't want anything bad happening to you. I’d support you on the things you do. The decisions and choices you make. You’ll always be something a part of me. No matter the distance. No matter the silence. No matter the drift. I still care about you, and I hope you know that too.

Peace love and lol.

Twice the purple.

2011-06-19T13:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fine. I had my mojo to meet all of the zombies i've been craving to see. I'm pretty thrilled and excited to watch a rugby match too. I never thought one match going to take that short. So, had my breakfast with my bebi bubu September and then off to the field. It feels nice to finally meet your long lost friend :) But I didn't stayed up that long cos i need to attend Abang Ijul's wedding ceremony. Still, i manage to make a new passport picture which i found myself looking pretty fat -.- Oya, I met a few of my aliens and aliens at the wedding. So no need the long explanation, i'm not in the ooze of long long post. Ok baaaaaaaai.
P/s: Check out the rest photos of Abang Ijul's pictures at my Facebook album!

Peace love and lol.

XX

2011-06-17T16:40:00.001+08:00

I'VE DELETED ALL OF MY OLD POST. FOR MY OWN GOOD. KBAI.

Live and Acoustic with the zombies.

2011-06-13T17:09:00.001+08:00

So here is my recent project cover mash up my zombies have made. They're really good. You guys should check them out sometimes :) Thanks zombies for lending the time for making this video. Thanks also to my cute lilttle 'backup' singer and Nadzira Yazid. I'm going to upload more covers from them soon, i promise i'll keep you guys posted. Follow my twitter and subcribe my youtube account for a quicker updates :) ENJOY!

P/S : The bloopers is coming out soon!

Peace love and lol.

Love ones,

2011-06-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

Congratulations Kak Yang.

WE LOVE YOU

Reminisce

2011-06-07T05:59:00.000+08:00

It feels nothing and plain when your oh-so problems had settled and you want to keep on finding a new one. And when we bumped into one, we started to complain and say all things that you could describe how terrible your life is. Well, will you shut the fuck up? Life is quite simple actually. But somehow, we are the ones who will never satisfy what around us has to offer. Get it? We're the complicated ones. Everything has to put out based on emotions. See, emotions are complicated. We are the stupid ones. Not reality or whatever you called it. So stop complaining and start to live.

I met izzul yesterday. It was good, been craving to had a private conversation with him for ages. I realized all the things we used to do together were great and i wished a thousand times to turn back time. But anyway, things between us are good, never been better. My chins are always been fine. And btw, Izzul is not my boyfriend. He's just a really close friend of mine. So, you monsters stop making conclusion as if we're dating each other but we're not. We will never see ourselves being together. NEVER. OH GOD PLS STOP IMAGINE ALL THOSE CRAPPY THINGS HAHA. OK PEACE GUYS. TAKE CARE! ♥

Peace love and lol.

Vomiting rants

2011-06-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Aliens. Prepare yourself for a total nonsense post. Bugagagagaga!
Ehe. So, I may sound weird but yes, i miss typing...stuff. The ideas on what to write about are there but then again when i lay my hands on this keyboard, everything just easily went away. Believe me, this is my 5th attempt trying to put something up that is worth reading. Argh, i just can't think straight right now. My life is a mess. I just need a little bit of space but somehow, little was never enough. To be frank, i wanted to post something a bit from my heart. My current major problems. Telly telly sad stories. But on second thought, naaah. I'm not in the 'emo zone' for an excessive expression towards blogging. So i've decided to post up something....random :)

I've been in a middle of a mess. I misunderstood a few things, get into trouble here and there, made myself break apart. Ah, this time of holiday feels wayyyy different. My head stuck with the same old thing since last year. That one thing you just can't pass through unless you go though it. SPM. Yes, i loathe saying that. Things are messed up and i need to change. For the sake for my parents. My future. Honestly, my mind can't stop like, ergh not thinking a zit about it and currently i have a major sleeping problem. I feel like a bat and i looked like a panda. I don't feel pretty at all -.- and yes, my parents. They're just being way too abnormal and overreacted on anything i do, even the smallest thing. Ergh, my life is a mess mosteres. Train wreck.

I think i need a shopping medicine. Oh god, i haven't went on shopping for a few months and hell, i feel terrible. Now i know why i get a random seizure every single time i had a visit at Jusco. Lulz. So anyway, i've been begging my parents to allow me to sit on my driving exams on this week but it seems like i kept on getting a red light. They're being way to obsessive towards my time schedule right now so they don't even bugged seeing me attacked by a boredom seizure at home. Really, i had this like massive hyper mode when i get too much boredom. Trust me, you'll be surprised how annoying i could get. Haha.

This is the worst part, ever. My mom took away my phone. That doesn't bother me at all bcos i still do have all internet excess! Muahaha but things get pretty hard when i need a person and i can't contact them. Argh. FML FML FML. Wtv, as long as i have twitter, i can live. HAH. So yeah, another week to finish up my folio account and pack myself up with a lil bit of studies. So go figure. Wish me luck aliens.

Peace, love and lol.

To be shared

2011-05-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

So hi. I'm full of embarrassment right now. Wanna know why? Sebab member gue pih upload dance flashmob yang gue buat dekat sekolah yang sangat memalukan! ASDFGHJKL. Idk what went wrong but i did some mistakes on the stage. Cos that's reason why i'm so embarrassed to watch it HAHAHA. So anyway, it is to be shared even with a heavy heart. Everybody makes mistakes right? ergh. So wtv. But I promise myself I wont watch it though. As requested, i post this up on my blog :) Yeah. ENJOY! -.-

Peace love and lol.

Highlights

2011-05-27T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hisan, my very best co-director and helper.

Hi.
I had a really good day, week to be exact. It feels amazing when your efforts and sacrifices for a thing that you love to do got credits for it. Yeah, it feels great to be noticed for once. It's not that i like the attention, its the hard work and all the crappy things people have said to burn me down actually made me even want to make this shit even better. Yknow, trying rub it back in their faces. Its feels nice eheheh. I am grateful for all the nicest people and friends who really supportive and helpful in this entire project. I'm blessed and thank Allah for giving me this opportunity. And I personally thank Ahmad Hisan for helping more than just a lot. Thank you.

I've made 14 videos, Teacher's Day videos. I've chosen 8 to be shared publicly. I slip a bit of my very own surprise for them and yeah, it worked! So thank you monsters, aliens, and vampies. Thank you. Enjoy!
P/S: Happy Teacher's Day :)

CLICK HERE FOR OTHER TEACHER'S DAY VIDEO AWARDS

Peace love and lol.

Goodbyes

2011-05-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

There were many things I wanted to write before this, but life never goes in the neat little order we desire. I wanted to write about the laughter and lightness we made in the midst of the darkness. I wanted to write about the long goodbye. I wanted to write more about the struggle that i'm facing through. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. And if I have failed to write about the things I have done, at least I have done them. I can write about them another time.

Peace, love and lol.

2009

2011-05-02T20:32:00.001+08:00

HOW I'D WISH IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME.

Tell me what to do.

2011-05-01T17:03:00.001+08:00

Miss me? I know. I miss you too.

There's just a week left before kgv's mid test starts and i haven't started any revision yet. There's a lot to be covered up, i know i know -.- I've been way too occupied with other things that it has totally messed up my studies schedule and my sleeping habit. It bugs me a lot when i kept on arriving late to school almost every zingle migle day. Im soo tired to rush every morning to go to school and when i arrived bam, there's Pn Maimom and i have to cabut the rumput every morning. Tired, i tell you. Gergh. So anyway, i'm dumping my blog for awhile bcos i have tons of things i need to handle right now. Blogging isn't going to help me at all. So, i need to put my focus up on my studies!...and other random things too ;p Sorry ok fellas? eh, twitter is an exceptional k? trolololo.

Well em okay, my days weren't eventful as it used to be. So em, no exciting stories to brag about this time. Sorry vampies. I'm bushed and heads out. Baaii.

Peace love and lol.

Problematic.

2011-04-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

Hello monsters. Hi hi, how are you?

Excuse for my disappearance. I've been busy with random school activities recently and i didn't get a zit of chance to touch my friggin laptop and because of that my camera totally f'ked up of the excessive amount of gay pictures in it. Im sorry im sorry im sorry. But if you do want to know what's on earth im currently doing, follow my twitter instead. I'm a frequent-tweet fleek. Hehe. Get it? glee and freak = fleek? No? OK.

Last week, i went to this PLKN sort of camp but way way cooler. The thing that made me sad was it's on my friggin birthdayyyy, what a bummer :( So, i thought its going to be a rough with all the in-controlled fesilitator camp but there's not even a zit thing i hate about it when i stayed there for three awesome days. Everything was so light and cosy execpt for the mentally abused activities. Mentally torture i tell you, but in a really good way tho. I have to admit i do shed a lot of tears back there, in front of everyone. Literally. I was giving a speech, it's really hard to control my emotions ok. Haha. To be frank, going to the camp made me realize something that there's more than just an outside of the box. Everything revolves around me actually means something. Reality.

Oyaaaa, a quick review about the French Society Club Fashion Show and JB concert. It was great guys. I'm really gratelful to be part of your support team. Though i'm in a bad knee injury, hot hot weather but it was worth it ok vampies *clapping. And for the other zombies and aliens, please do request for your catwalk picture through my facebook. I'll post it up only in a request. And for the beliebers, enough with the bieb hungover and get a life. Oh oh, thanks shira for your effort to call me yesterday. Sorry i didn't pick up the phone :(

P/S: Thank you guys for such a sweet sweet wishes. I'm blessed to have all of you as my top secret super duper extra special burger bestfriend *cough. I'll end this post with a picture of a good friend of mine. Thanks buddy ♥

Kalau ada marker dah tulis "Happy Birthday!"

Tapi tak daaaa, so........Nah amik paper kosong ! :P

Selamat hari jadi fafaaaaawesome!

Peace, love and lol.

2011-04-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

The universe conspires in our favor.

When nothing seems to be working,

it's because something better is in store.

Peace, love and lol.

Score!

2011-04-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

I don't exactly know how to describe my weekends in a really long post. My brain isn't working properly. All i could say right now is my body is aching, im in a major voice dysfunctional, manly voice to be exact, runny nose and bad headache :( September arranged a game of futsal with random aliens and vampies. Most of us played with zero experience and we had fun. Great week, thanks guys for wasting your valuable time with us. Thank you thank you. Ok bai for now. I'm tired and drowsy. See ya later alligator!

P/S : Comel tak jersey cheer squad? :D

Peace, love and lol.

Five things,

2011-03-31T21:29:00.001+08:00

Seven Things that Cross My Mind A Lot

1. My family.

2. Memories of the people I love.

3. You.

4. The future, my future.

5. SPM.

6. School.

7. Funny jokes.

Six Things I do Before I Fall Asleep

1. Listen to some music.

2. Texting or maybe even tweeting.

3. Think of what happened and what will happen.

4. Let my feeling get the best of me, for awhile.

5. Move around and cuddle up to find the ‘right’ spot.

6. Let out a sigh of relief after I found the right spot, just before i fall asleep.

Five Things that Frustrate Me

1. Best friends keeping secrets from each other.

2. Planning things away ahead of time and then ends up with nothing.

3. When people just reply ‘oh’ when I spazz about something incredibly incredible.

4. Teachers mentally abusing when I was actually did nothing wrong.

5. My writing looking ugly.

Four Things I Love to do On Rainy Days

1. Look at the falling rain.

2. Sleep.

3. Play the instrument.

4. Reminisce.

Peace love and lol.

Not a tad of difference

2011-03-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

Funniest thing i've seen so far in this week. Epic.

For me, March took way too long to leave, it felt years to end it. Honestly, i secretly hate March. Why? Well aliens, to tell you the truth, i actually have this secret love hate relationship with March every year, literally. Its where mostly, for me, stupid things happen and em, just plain shit that make me go fucking emo mojo all the time. No kidding. Believe me dear aliens. That's how much i secretly hate March. Oh btw, my March test wasn't all that bad but i was expecting for a better than what i've actually got, great to be exact. I was really disappointed. Ergh, note to yourself : never let twitter takes over your textbooks. But apart from that, some of it were strangely great. Enough said. Hm, a bit gloomy isn't it? PMS, as always.

Last week, idk when, i can't recall that much, its Chins' 17th Birthday! God i miss him so much, very very much. I miss all those tiny moments we had at my house and that great time we had for our pmr studies even thinking about that post-pmr days made me all teary. Izzul, if you do remember me and had this like a hunch to read my blog at colleague, here a tiny notes to you; 'I HATE YOU, LOL JK. MISS YA. I'LL TREAT YOU SOME DOGFOOD LATER KAY LOVE. MUAH!' and and not to forgot my vampie, nuryn nabila. I miss you and and i can't wait to hang out with you and do crappy things and takes random pictures and upload it on facebook and then get embarrassed on ugly pictures. I miss you guys :')

Anyway, I've gone really close with my classmate than last year, but there's a couple or two that i, we, idk, stopped hang out or even talk shit like we used to. Don't ask me why because i'm in the same situation as you guys too. Ergh, humans. I will never get understands them, never.

Ok bai monstersssssss.

Peace love and lol.

Wasted youth.

2011-03-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

Let me explain to you what i did this week in a really short post :

Mondae : I accidentally skipped Addmath class, literally. So, i went to ze cheer practice.
Tuesdae :Getting excited hehe. I went to History class and then off to the field. P/S: i got two friggin new red tshirts. So friggin osem i tell you.
Wednesdae : Spm result day. I was more nervous than the ex-form5s. Butterfly in my stomache yerr :/ So, i accompanied a friend of mine to take his result slip. His result wasn't that bad, it was actually good, better than good. You did so well. Remember, its the effort that counts :)
Thursdae : I was errr in a total emo mojo bcos i cant make it on time for the game. Had an addmath tuition that evening but anyhooo, congrats on the winning!
Fridae : Had lunch and it was just nice. Really nice.
Saturday : Duty called. My school had their annual PTA meetings so, nobody's interested on taking ze picture and by that... you'll get the picture -_-
Sundae : The usual things, tuition -.-

Ok bai zombies. Talk to yar later.

Peace, love and lol.

Boudoir,

2011-03-20T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hi.
ok so where should i start first? Hmmm. oh yeaaaaa...
School holiday break is almost over and apparently i've wasted my day, em quite good to be exact. Half of it i get wasted by getting drunk, lol jk :p I hung out with my vampies and aliens babies. Yarrr, life is so fun me so happy right now. Very happy i tell you. So friggin happy..

Anyhoo, yesterday miss aliens baby invited me to celebrate her b'day at dominos last night (happy birthday alien baby!) and it was ok. It made me take my mind off things. Besides, i've been missing felisa like hell and god she's look fa... mhuhm, you know what i mean girlll haha. Ok i'm going to post all the pictures, 'pretty ones', up on my blog and the chosen ones i'll put it up on facebook kapish? Uploading every zingle mingle thing in facebook a wee bit no no for me bcos idk? not interested on doing so? haa~ ok no more questionssxzxzxz. So later after that i head up to Mcd for meetup with a friend of mine and yeap. that's it i think.

Everybody's leaving. So do i. Kbai zombies, vampies, aliens and everyone.
Eh i have to admit that i'm a bit excited for school to open. Wuuhh, goosebumps.

Peace, love and lol.

One swallow does not make a summer.

2011-03-16T19:48:00.002+08:00

Train wreck.

Hi ok hari ni aku agak nak berbahasa pulak. Apa salahnya sekali sekala kan? Payah la kalau 24/7 nak speaking je. Takkan nak biar bahasa pupus dimakan zaman? Hahaha sumpah bajet.

So cuti seminggu ni aku habiskan masa cuci otak dgn clorox, pegi tuisyen, bangun awal pagi, berzikir semua la. Takde de aku jadi hantu katil bantal tido sampai meleleh air liur basi, terus zohor pun lupa. Bajet insaf nak spm lah kan. Sekolah ada kelas tambahan semua aku pegi. Takde satu pun aku skip. Bersabar gila nak mati bangun awal tiap hari, tahan mengantuk dalam kelas. Menyesal punya pasal time pmr tak penah nak datang kelas tambahan. Itu lah dia. Baru sekarang nak sedar kan Fatin? Seminggu ni jugak lah setiap hari aku ada macam macam hal. Macam bang... yeah. Tau takpe.

Haritu aku pegi wedding reception kakak Alya.Tak payah cerita la dia punya lawa tu tahap menggunung kau tau? Aku pandang Alya semacam gila. Oh ye tak ye, dia tgh pakai heels. Patutla semacam 8D hehe. Em, then the day after that Dollah punya abang pulak kahwin. Sorry weh aku tak dapat datang. Demam pulak. Bukan sebab sengaja ye. Ampun.

Oh ye, last week aku duduk exam bulan Mac. Susah tu takde lah susah. Susah sebab tak baca buku memang lah kan? Hantu hantu habis exam dok lega pegi makan angin bagai. Apa jadah? Baru Mac nak goyang kaki. Susah lah camni brado. Bila nak berubah? Haih, takleh takleh.

Hidup aku lately ni sumpah mintak kaki. Yeah aku tau aku yang mintak jadi camni. Redha jela. Dah benda nak jadi aku takleh nak paksa kan? Aku fikir nak belajar je sekarang ni. Nothing else. And for you, I harap you faham condition i sekarang. And untuk kau, tolong lah jangan macam ni. Aku malas nak bising and aku tak nak gaduh dengan sesiapa pun. Harap maklum dan harap faham.

Agak agak masa spm aku punya bm boleh dapat A+ tak kalau aku jawab macam ni? Yeah! My Bahasa Melayu kick arse! Ok bai hantu, monyet, raksasa.

Peace love and lol.

The sky is our limit.

2011-03-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

and i changed my header. Simple yet pretty. Me like me like.

With the right timing and the right chemistry, anything has the ability to change.

2011-03-01T13:02:00.004+08:00

I skipped school today. Why? Bcos I got a monthly stomach ache. If you know what i mean :3 && forgive me for the long title :)

February ends quite nicely isn't it?

So, last Saturday i met my fellow zombies! Hmm i'm quite amazed how they managed to swallow everything up in seconds. HA, now i know why i call you zombie pipo. Har har. Then i went to jj for meetups with a friend of mine. February and Ijul tagged along. Gegh. Truth to be told, i'm a bit annoyed how lovebirds can go all gugu in public especially if one of them is my friend. Gah, i felt like i want to poke my eyes out ._. no offence bro but c'mon, srsly? -.- shame on youuuu.

Oyah, there this one day, you'll know this if you're one of my twitter follower. I had this red-spots-pimples-look-a-like thinggy on my hand. I freaked out and started to yell to everyone that i might have cancer. Hahahah, ok you're exaggerating way to much tin. jk jk. So, i called my mom bcos she's away from home to ask whats wrong with me and she said i might have an allergy. She told my sissy to bring me to the clinic. Ok, to the clinic. I went there and explain what happen to the doc and he told me something that makes no sense at all but so true. I'm suffering from a dust allergy. How cool is that? -.- lol so funi aa? hahaha.

Next week its exam weeeeeek! I'm feeling anxious and idk why. Too eager to see those gazillions As in my result maybe? Har har. This is what we called, to success we have to work hard from the start and by that I start from now. C'mon books! Is that the best you can do?! HAH. I'll end this post with an epic picture of an epic face of mine. Hehe, enjoy! Baaiii :)

Peace love and lol.

The truth needs to come first...

2011-02-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

and don't make it into a habit. I'll get worst. Trust me.

That's a reply from Shahira's recent Blogpost. Its just my view in things. Moving on.

Sorry for the long hiatus. I've been busy handling lots of errands at school and jam packed afternoon and night classes on top of it, and because of that, i couldn't even get myself a 12 hours long nap. So many things i'd like to share with you pipo in so little space. So, please bear with me okay? :)

So where was i? oh yes, since the last post. I barely could remember it's on CNY, i think. Omg that long eh? oh em, as you can see my family grew bigger and so does the food. Every single time everybody gathered, i guarantee that no one will suffer a hunger syndrome i tell you. Ok, idk if that disease actually exist, but if it does, yay me for making it famous HAHA. OK carry on...

Let's just skipped the part where i actually remember eh. I got this some sort of memory shot yada yada or wtv you aliens called it. Kgv had their very own annual cross country and i made a promise to myself that in what so ever circumstances, i'll enter it with a 'anxious' feel in it and for a record i decided to not to participate this year and focus on taking their ksdsfiegfds tired effed red-face long run. Win. Its to die for precious moments. Ha, i had 'my' kind of fun. Oh wait, i just broke myself a promise. Am i a bad myself? ha-ha. so funi aa....

There this once I had to bring up this Shane's stupid game idea called chubby bunny where we have to shove as many marshmallow in our mouth and say a full sentence of it. So we played it and i felt horrible despite how i disgusted eating a marshmallow and now shoving everything in my mouth weren't making things any easier. I was bloated and vomit it out. Yes, i have to admit i was stupid back then -.-Anyway, what we did basically just for the sake of having fun and a regular embarassing moments in class. We were bored and you'll get the picture.

So, we planned a dirty little surprise for February on her 17th birthday, its was tiring yet so..surprising :p There's cakes, drinks, pictures, sweats, emo faces, epic fail emo faces of juniors and yada yada. So for the baby aliens, thank you for everything esp kuchenk for the yummy spaggies :q i couldn't wish for a better surprise haha :D hugs and kisses for everybody!

PS: I was freaking out during KSF meetting. my brain was dead frozen. I can't even think straight. Silly me -.-
PS2: I like nandos, like a lot lot.
PS3: I know, long post. I had fun typing it btw.

Peace, love and lol.

Family Two Point Oh.

2011-02-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

'happiness depends upon ourselves'

Peace, love and lol.

My alien babies.

2011-01-30T20:45:00.001+08:00

Baibai babies. I'll miss laughing w you pipo :')

Take care, have fun at yr new school and goodluck! ;)

Best wishes.

Peace love and lol.

2011-01-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

Kalau kau tak amik kesah pasal feelings kau or life kau. Then, itu masalah kau. Why don't you care about other people feelings especially 'me' for once? Kau ingat aku ni apa? Manusia tunggu maut? Tolonglah. Aku ada life nak hidup. Tepuk dada tanya selera. Semua orang berubah. Termasuk aku.

Fingers on you.

2011-01-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

Pizza birthday cake specially delivered.

I bet you pipo terkejut when you saw my ugly fingers eh? Well em, trying to spice things up a bit. Hehe. Spice is good, right?

Owmaiga. honestly, I've been putting my thought in this. I've always wanted to wear a hijab using a shawl. I am wearing a scarf right now but i was really jealous seeing my sisters and mostly, everybody is wearing a shawl. They look really really good in it and omg they come in a really cute prints! C'on la? sape taknak wei? gerrhhhhh. I tried once, but i kept on thinking waw, my head looks big! waaaaw, my dahi looks too over exposed! and wawww jerawat can been seen. You see? I have this one insecurity that I'm having a hard time letting it go. Besides, wearing one makes me feel...naked? is that a right word? Lol. Nevermind. So I tried to upload it on Facebook to see what people thinks and I got a really good response. Thank you aliens, zombies. I woof you. Thank you for the good support and compliments :') Well, idk if youre lying or anything, but if you do. I still woof you.

Samedi. Ah, the best day I had so far in my...January. Ayong and Abg Rafeq came home and so does Ieqah. Abg Adam sleeping over. Cool right? So the ten of us decided to had our very own big-mini-party-celebrating-everything. There's tempura, grilled salmon, cokes, satays, and 4 boxes of dominoes. Fyi, grilled slamon is ze best. Then mama bought the mini movie that Astro provided for 15 bucks mannnn. Cheap ah? And we watched Damping Malam with the lights off and pillows everywhere. It was osem anddddd.....I screamed -.- me no like scary things kay -.-

With my new baby, we played drawing names using the shutter. Abg rafeg being pornish when he drew.... em something inappropriate. Ayong "I have an underage Adik here ok?!" and the night goes on. Ngeh. It was osem. So to whom that very interested to watch Damping Malam, my doors are wide open.

I think sleeping after 2am is going to be my new routine because 'somebody' figured out how to have a privacy talking to me via fb at midnight. Good job my friend. You're making my eyes got more panda-er. Yes, I know im cute :8 Okay bai aliens. This post is long enough. I did good. Ideas overflown. Yay. Talk to yarh laterr monsters. Me want to go to sleep :o

Peace love and lol.

Trashed

2011-01-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

I've cleaned and officially deleted my old post. Why? Because it's too embarrassing hehe. I prefer to forget rather than remember every bits of it. Keeping it aren't gonna make me a better laydayy. Let's move on and get a better life. Remembering the past wont do any good, so why do we even bother look back?

Peace love and lol.

February, September and Twenty

2011-01-20T01:29:00.003+08:00

I've been surrounded with an amazing people and I thank you Allah for everything. Thanks to mama and ayah for giving me love and support. Thanks to you, i've become a better person. Thanks to all my vampies for lending a hand. Thanks to you bitches for making me awesome. Thank you. I'm very grateful for what I have.

I was bored and decided to volunteered to make a video for Afiz. I had fun though in the making of the video. All georgians were great and helpful. Thanks a gazillions guyssss. I larrff youu! Oh oh, Happy Belated Birthday to my very best Aliens Jay and Alyafarah. Triple loves coming from me to you. Sorry for the late post :S and to Ayong, Happy Birthday♥ I love you till death k? :')

Btw, i hate my old YT account name, so i made a new one! Ngeheh. Go check it out and watch my newest vid. Bai!

Peace love and lol.

Faffing around

2011-01-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

This is an epic face of coolness w the hottest girl in town, Shahira Zainul.

My second week of school wasn't bad. It was actually good with the twitter and stuff. Everything seems to falls down quite nicely. In fact I even enjoy going to afternoon classes, for now. lol. Anyway, I did my homework in time, do extra research on further courses, and just basically Google random things that's on my brainnnn. Google, always solve everything...well, sometimes.

So yesterday(thursday to be exact), September collapsed on me. I thought she was just taking a nap on my thigh with her face went BAM! straight kissing on it. I was like "ha-ha mel pemalas nye hang, sleep properly laa. You're killing yourself". And then i asked her to wake up but she didnt move and i started to panicked.. and that's when the screaming part began. lol. Now, Allhamdulillah she's doing fine :)

So February asked if both us us interested on participating this dance class which sounds interesting but at the same time thinking...am i ready for a full-packed-tired-schedule weekdays? yes? no? Maybe. We'll see. Right now, my concentration are more to add-math, history, and account exercise drills. I really really need to score this. My future depends on it. Bluegrher. So ciao.

Follow me on twitter.

'L'

2011-01-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Life is random and full of surprises.

So prepare yourself.

Bend It, Turn It, Twist It, But It'll Never Come Back.

2010-12-31T04:38:00.001+08:00

Dear my love,
Even though we/I don't get a chance to know each other for a long long time but half of my year i spent my life with you was amazing even though everybody hates you for what you've become but we accept for who you are because god create you for a reason and we accept it with an open hearted. After we accept you as part of our family, we thought you were the most snobbish thing on earth but somehow we adore your beauty. Amazing how it looks, all of us melt in a weird way to you.

Im sorry i did this way too late, maybe i just need a little break from everything that have thrown in my face. I miss you a lot, and he misses you too. We put him inside and sleep w mum to accompanied him because he's never been left alone before. I know how that feels, it feels horrible. Let's just say it gets a little teary when we heard him screaming in the middle the night wanting us to be with him right instance. All i can say right now i love you, sorry for what i've done and everything we did is for your own good. We did our best to protect you from it but somehow god loves you more than us. Don't you dare forget about me ok? I love you from deep down bottom of heart. We're sorry. We did everything. We tried. I'm sorry.

Sincerely,
Your Family.

Au Revoir Mi Amor.

2010-12-31T04:09:00.001+08:00

I HAD AN AWESOME SHOPPING VACATION SO FAR. sabah was great. All i did was shopping, bought, wondered, splurge, everything but nothing include sight seeing. Why? bored w it. I've been there for a gazillion times and went too many places that i bet no ones ever been to. Hm, i need another vacation. It'll be a 'having-fun-before-spm-vacation' ergh, if that's going to happen. Keep on dreaming Fatin -.-

Great, today's new years eve and i haven't started thinking of what pros and cons about this year. Hm, well most of my thought are about moving forward and never look back. Try to improve what's im lacking and be a better student. Getting a good result is my point start from now on. Seeing everybody so focused on their studies have made me even eager to study with them. All i can say right now is never look back in any circumstances. Mistakes is what made us right now. Believe in yourself.

2010 was hard for me. Loosing is part of it. Everybody moved on when i don't. Im still on this pathetic school while everyone else are having time of their lives making new friends. I did but several of them, i could even count every single on of them with fingers! lol that sounds a little bit abnormal. how can i even count example 13 of them when i ten fingers only? haha stewpid fatin. get a life sissy -.- so erm, i had the worst last day of school with my girlfriend w/o any flour fight, last night being a form four student i wasted it all to finish my folio, and being stupid enough i didn't spent my last day being form four with you. why? because time wasn't on our side. What a great life i had. Really.

I got a job for these past few days. Looking forward for it though hihi. I cant wait for next school holiday, or even better. AFTER SPM HOLIDAY MUAHAHAHA. lol, keep on dreaming Fatin. Keep it on -.-

A new year, new things shall be receive, new resolution and a lot of sacrifice will be done. I hope i don't lose any of it. Dear god.....

OMK

2010-12-23T21:41:00.003+08:00

POLICE HELP!

I SAT ON A COCKROACH AND GROSSED MYSELF OUT.

WAAAAAAA!

T.T

Goodbye, for good.

2010-12-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

Lifeless Moments

2010-12-22T20:39:00.000+08:00

im totally digging a giraffe right now. So...

I had the worst 20th day in history. I don't want this thing to ruin me or someone's life. Life is easy, this is hard. Everything are way complicated. We have to change, move on, get over with it. Start of something new? Yeah, great idea.

My days were f'ked up. No girlfriend to hang with, totally broke, all of my vampies can't go out anymore bcos of 'spm next year hv to start study immediately' ... lol whut? -.- this is sickening. I thought sixteen is going to be a sweet year, i was wrong. All i could think of doing right now is sleeping, marathon series and um, watched all 3ds that's hitting cinema. Bazir duit, i know. But it's fun tho.

I'm going to Sabah this Satuday and i'm freakin' excited. Last time i went there was 2 years ago.Oh my god, i know there's a lot of things change since the last visit. I miss my room and that creepy cat i used to play with. and to make this trip better, my brother-in-law tagging along :)

23rd December. oooh, i know this date gives most of my juniors goosebumps. Yeh, i've been there before and it wasnt a good feeling at all. It was a nervous feelings, sweaty palms. yknow the night before it went out, all of my vampies had the night of our lives. We had our barbecue. I know, ironic isn't it? Haha. We laughed and basically chilled. Excepting the worst from tomorrow, we had our last party before everything start to falling apart. Oh boy i'm telling you this, the worst part of knowing your result are by not hearing your name called to come up and join all of your friends on stage. It wasn't a great feeling at all. But i didn't cried.

So, i've made my mind on things i want to do for a further studies. I'd put a lot of thoughts in it and my parents support me. I going to persuade my dream into something based on IT. I've been wanting this since i was a kid and if my grades are good, InsyAllah :) Now, all i have to do is fight through SPM. Errrhhh.

Peace love and lol.

Oh wow..

2010-12-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

I was really stupid back then -.-

2010-12-20T05:29:00.002+08:00

It doesn't matter what stands in your way.

You've got magic inside you and you will prevail.

Wholesome of life.

2010-12-19T23:53:00.001+08:00

best week of my life, ever.

2010-12-08T08:08:00.002+08:00

*squeezing out ideas...

but failed -.-

make it worth your time

2010-11-27T02:59:00.001+08:00

I've started to learn new songs with my piano yesterday. Jyeah i know, it's been awhile.

Fatin Fathanah.

IamHippoFierce.

2010-11-26T08:03:00.000+08:00

Hiho yo yo.
I can't sleep. My brains wont stop being way too productive, even so i can't even update my blog into a longer post. Bluergh, screw you Maggi for being so sedap when im hungry. boo boo. ok skip that. So um... my life isn't that interesting like it used to. Why? well i've been lack of 'going out' with my aliens thats why. Uhm, NO i'm not busy. I just have a really great date with my bed mwahahahhaha. lol jk jk. I just need a 'little' rest from this lkajdasdo thing im having for my family.ah, little rest wont hurt right?

So, my 2 big sisters is getting married. Too much stuff to do in this short amount of time. I did angah's dulang hantaran deco. It was simple, not that oh mai so hebat and damn lawa man! NO. but i did well as far as my brain could do. Amateur's hands, save budget what? Haha. Allhamdulilah, so far everything went as planned and all my prayers goes to the soon big event, insyAllah it'll goes smoothly. Eh you aliens can come if you want to, i don't mind. hear ye hear ye party crashers! :D

ok, i got my 5 pairs of clothes ready but i haven't found a really noice wedges or flats to pair with them. Hmhm ideas anyone? Btw, i'm thinking of giving away my cat. He's been bugging my days since foreverrrr. Interested?

Fatin Fathanah >:)

Looking good ron weasley

2010-11-24T19:38:00.000+08:00

Hi Hi

Yesterday i watched Harry Potter with my cousins. It was ze bom even though i didn't understand half of the story but i do enjoy watching Mr. good looking Rupert in every scene. Nyehehehheh. Rupert, you're the most sexiest redhead EVER. me love you :D

I'm blank now so, bye!

Farghtin Farghanah

Fantasy check

2010-11-20T05:15:00.002+08:00

Yeap, he's real.

Thanks for everything.

You've been a great companion in my life.

And I am very grateful for that.

: )

Fatin Fathanah

On one hot sunny day

2010-11-10T13:23:00.001+08:00

I went to Syamel's house and we did nothing.

HIMYM, Zing!

2010-11-09T02:19:00.001+08:00

Ok i know this sounds lame. But good god! Barney is sho aweshum! Im digging How I Met Your Mother like that yo. Here, check this video and this video up. Hihi

"High Five!" "Sorry, I only give High Two"

lol

Fatin Fathanah.

The universe conspires in our favor.

2010-11-08T17:55:00.001+08:00

I HAD FUN. Its the only word that can only express my feelings right now. Even though, a person, many people, didn't make it through their parents' permission. Hm, you guys got my sympathy.

The school bus came late, 3 hours LATE. How nice. There were syamel, nyna, nadzreen, and alyn. The juniors were athirah, serafina, syafiqah, sufi, nabi, and radin. Syamira, Dania and her sister drop out last minute. Hm, poor poor. We had our bfast at Bistro and got back on track around 10.30am. It was pretty late but wtv. I was planning on cancelling the trip because we're running late but everyone protested my decision. Hmph, kay fine. I did the wrong thingg. I know i know.

The worst is yet to come. The newer version of the cable car went wrong so, our lovely teacher got us up into this older-version ones. It wasnt a long queue but idk how stupid Malaysia was for creating only two cable cars in one cable like woifjsdgdsg with you pipo? Bodoh betul. And then idkwho'ssheisbutshesmakingussick started to yelled at us for being so frakdiafjhd childish. Hey, that't not our fault that they got left behind. Bluergh. Oyah, one of ckg Arbinah's twins broke my cookie monster necklace. Urgh bluergh. This is WHY i hate kids -.-

So, we had our epic moments around 2 to 5pm. It was nice, i mean really nice that we could only got 3 rides. I repeat. Nice, really nice. Oh, the Snow World was great though. I felt like i'm in london or something. I'll post the 'snow moments' pictures soon, InsyAllah. Overall, i had a great time. It was a safe trip. Good enough to cover the mess i did in Seremban. Ok-ish. Ok la. Not bad. HAHA. More photos in Facebook.
Ooooh! Fact : I loike snakes. They're pweety.

Fatin Fathanah.

The exciting yet non-eventful life of nothing

2010-10-29T00:32:00.002+08:00

Hi hello.

Good news ! I lost my voice today because of the 2 hours non-stop singing, screaming, jumping and head banging in the karaoke room. It was nice getting a chance to let out your inner 'screaming' voice. Hm sadly, i sounded like an old man. Oh well, gain something and lose something. That's how life works.

Did you know, when you put an order to buy a pizza at Domino's Pizza, they're much cheaper via online. No kidding. The ala carte ain't cheap. If you place your order via online, you'll be offered with a cheap cheap list of combos. I was pointing this out to the certain people out there who taking orders via fixed line and got caught up with over budget order. I think you guys know who you are. Heh, just saying.

12.22am. Woot, i can't wait to see luqman today. Bye !

Fatin Fathanah

Sucking up life.

2010-10-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

Oh hi.

Im bored. And this is what i'll do when i'm bored. Hmm, did you know Paul the Octopus died yesterday ? Oh my, i wonder whose tummy he's going to end up in. HAHA.

Ok, that was random. Btw, Luqman entered this really interesting competition by HTC and they're giving away free new HTC Wildfire android phone. He needs some help. All you vampies have to do is to long in into your Facebook account, click on this link, like the picture and voila! Easy right ? ;)

fiusjdfdsjfsfisf ok im blank. Bye.

psst, thanks for helping!

Fatin Fathanah

Via SW

2010-10-26T18:15:00.000+08:00

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

Tumblr.

IGJWTE, yeap.

2010-10-25T20:15:00.001+08:00

IF HE HAS THE GUTS TO DO IT.

FUCK THEN, I CAN DO IT TOO.

BITCH.

Different kind of way to solve problems.

2010-10-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

Somewhere at the end of the year '09, in bulan ramadhan.

at Aloma's tuition, before PMR starts.

October sure filled with stressful days eh ? Hmph 3 weeks of exams, IHY. Sigh, how i'd wish everything ends in a week! So my brain could process the wrong ideas of spending the whole month off beside worrying about what should I read or not. The last exam paper, 20th and the 30th oct, shopping spree, my takpegisekolah days and night out to Paramore's Concert. Oh god, i'm getting goosebumps! hoho :B

Ergh, i need to eat my frakekjsd books now. Feelin' like a monkey ey ey and Idk why...

Talk to you soon. Bye !

p/s: I thought by uploading the above picture might made someone's day. Hehe :)

Fatin Fathanah

10.10.10

2010-10-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

I had the best 10.10.10 day

EVERRRRRR MUAHAHAHAHAHAAHA

Fatin Fathanah

Look back with no regrets

2010-10-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

I had a really good month in September in the earlier and the end of the month. Roughly even focus on my studies but i'll take that blame. So malas of me. Huuurrrrr. But anyway, my September end up pretty well. Allhamdulilah.

Kgv held their very own Merdeka 'postponed' celebration last Wednesday. It started badly with the boria practice, we didn't get a lot of participants from the 'boys' but the asramarians were fine. We thank you :) Somehow, things changed and everyone started to take part which is awesome hihi. Quoted by Nadzreen, "one last opportunity for the retard like us". Yeah, i agreed. Lazybones melewarians zzz. Fact; we came in third for boria, first in Merdeka Class Revamp. lol

Oyah, President & Secretary Curriculum Units went camping at ze school. The one-day-camp title wasn't fun at all, but fyi its ze best camp i've ever been so far. c'mon, name me one camping that'll give you 10 farghing hours of sleep ?! Noice right ? really noice.

Met luqman last friday. that's the reason why i came late for the registration. Sorry, i lied zzzz.
Oh look what he gave me. Hoho

HAHA. SO KIUT.

*blurred on purpose :>

Kay. Long enough to end up my month in September aite. Bye S. I'll miss you.

Fatin Fathanah

Half past twelve

2010-09-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

I know things won't get any better between us.

But one thing I can promise to you.

I will never stop trying until we do.

LDR

2010-09-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

"Okay fine. I'll wait. You owe a lot of bags."

"Damn.."

For once,

2010-09-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

Just because she's rich, doesn't mean you have to like her based on her wealth.

Just because she's sexy, doesn't mean you have to think about those nasty things about her.

Just because she's cheap, doesn't mean you can buy her.

Get a life douche. Give some respect.

&& you bitch, stop acting like you're hot.

You look like a dog, smell like a dog, even taste like one

OK, an emo post. I know. It's been awhile.

Fatin Fathanah

Im happier in the '90s

2010-09-17T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hi Vampies. How are you?
Sorry for not being productive lately. I did typed something out to post up in my blog, then again all those yummy smells of foods on this Syawal stopped me on doing so. Not my fault right ? HEH. Oyah, Happy Eid Mubarak to all mah vampis. I would like to ask for forgiveness for every mistakes, wrongs doings i've done and words that i've said may hurt you. Im sorry im sorry im sorry.

OK enough w the emo part. My first raya was a disaster. I wont write down what happened specifically but overall it was an OK day rather than a GREAT day. Let's just say, things wont be the same next year and the year after. Celebrating raya in an older age was never fun especially the duit raya part. Sibs always said "you'll get over it in no time". Yeah right.

Im out of idea. Seriously. I hate blogging.
Oh btw, I'll upload my recent activities photos up on my other post or you just check them out in my Facebook account. Taaduh. And here goes my raya photos w my siss

Fatin Fathanah